Life Without You

Life without you

is like a book without words

I would never have believed it

but I’m flyin like the birds

when I hold you in my arms

as we dance across the floor

I can’t help but notice

that I’m noticing you more

you said you have someone

and that I respect

but if I give up now

what can I expect

so I have to try now

while my heart is still set

otherwise this will turn into a nightmare

and the year I will regret

It’s finally over.

I did it. I finished both papers, and I’ve presented one. Life is good. Now, have a great day, ya heard!

National Identity

In my Global Systems and Cultures class, I have a research paper due, and in this paper, I must evaluate whether or not the European Union is dissolving borders and national identities. The good news is, I’m finding lots of dirt with my research. The bad news is that I have less than a week to write this paper. Wish me luck…I’m gonna need it.

As I Watch

I sit in this field

devoid of a care

my heart, calm and still

my words becoming air

I’ve been here many times

and I know not why

again I hear the chimes

on this night so dry

love and life are with me

showing me the way

as I sit here beside you

speaking from night, into day

and again I watch

you go away

this nightmare won’t stop

I have it everyday

In a cold sweat I wake

again to the empty room

the clock says it is late

but it is only noon

A Final Note on Medieval Life

So far, I’ve found plenty on medieval life, but absolutely nothing on medieval politics. However, this small detail shall not stop me, because I still have the mind of a scientist, and through a hypothesis based on my current knowledge of the situation, I will attempt to convey what kind of political structure there was back then. Also, I finally have some sort of focus for my topics, and thus, I shall succeed in writing this research paper.

Another on Medieval Life

This particular research day SUCKED! I couldn’t find any more than I already know about Medieval Politics, because, as soon as I searched it, every thing that could be considered a politic was shown to me. Thus, I stuck to reading about the supposed daily routines of people during that time, and hopefully through that, I’ll be able to make some extra suggestions. Well, that’s it for today, folks. Holla atcha boi!

About Medieval Life

So far, I’ve found so much information, that it’s hard to sort through what’s important, and what’s just plain old speculation. I would revert back to my earlier topic of medieval sword-fighting, but there’s not quite enough of a written record of it. I also would do my paper on the life of Joan of Arc, but I wanted to save that for my Historical Fiction that I’m working on now, as well. And thus, I’m stuck looking at old, drawn-out documents of English, French, and Spanish. I’ve also found Germanic records, but those are taking longer to decode…though I’m sure they’ll play an integral role in the paper. So far, most of my paper is written. I can only hope that I’ll have it in on time.

P.S.: Due Dates Are Closer Than They Appear!

Thoughts About Life

Please Note: Before you read this, know that it is regarding very sensitive subjects.

What makes a person who they really are? Or, for that matter, who they think they are? Personally, I think people should be done up like food packages with the ingredients clearly labeled, so you know what you’re getting into. But, seeing as how that’s virtually impossible, we just have to cope with wondering if the next guy is a liar and a scam artist. Due to all of the cyber crimes going on now, with men and women parading around the net, acting like they’re children just so that thy can get they’re sick sex fix, I have to say that you can never be too careful nowadays. I’ve had doubts about certain people I’ve met from all over the nation and the globe because of this almost sudden outbreak of crime on the web. However, after carefully chosen comments and mind-play, I’ve been able to weed out who I think might be criminals. The way you do it is up to you, but I prefer analyzing every single sentence, and deciding on the maturity of the writer. Back on subject, however, I find that my life is a happy one, though at times I doubt my own intentions, thoughts, actions, and words. What human doesn’t, you might ask? It is not the fact that I doubt myself that makes me wonder about where my life is headed, it’s the fact that I don’t trust myself anymore…and I’m all I have left. It is one thing to live your life in a bubble, ignoring all those surrounding you, but it is entirely another to enter into crowds of thousands and millions, meeting wonderful people and still fealing that empty loneliness you long to be rid of. I used to be a happy child, playing with boxes and such. I was very friendly, and perhaps a little too nice, because even in my preschool days, the other children practically ran all over me. I toughened up in third grade, after I got brutally jumped by three older boys. I began fighting back, never even caring who I hurt. And every time, a nagging emptiness like none I’d ever known washed through my soul with intense fury. In eigth grade I realized this, and it stopped me dead in my tracks, because I could feel my mind slipping into insanity. Ever since then, I’ve lightened up, using jokes and wit to avoid dangerous and risky situations. Now, look at me. I walk with thousands, yet remain forever alone. And it’s because of those feral years, it’s because of my streaks of rage. Only by accepting this problem was I able to fix it, but now, how do I repair this Titanic that is my life. It’s as though I’ve punched holes in it on purpose, just to let the water in. I’m drowning in my own self-guilt, but still, I’m happy, because I’m emerging from the darkness…emerging from beneath the surface. I’m grasping once again at the sunlight which I felt so eager to blot out with my constant battles. It is time to mend my ship, it is time…to mend my life. This ultimate battle, this quest for happiness, is the one I’ve been missing out on.

Human Nature

You know, I find that in all actuality, we cannot “fix” our society to what we want it to be. Also, we will never be ensured of what they call “world peace”. Don’t get me wrong, these are noteworthy goals, but with the way society evolves from day to day, they will most likely never come into fruition. All of the reasons for this bleak outlook can be summarized into two words. Competition and greed. Competition is not a bad thing, mind you, for every living thing must assert itself into a proper place, but when competition and greed become intermingled you begin to have real problems. Countries are warring and debating as we speak because of greed and competition. And so there is no question about it, NO, I am NOT accusing anyone of wrongdoing. The battles being waged in Iraq are not solely the fault of our government leader, even though he did play a large role in bringing that about. This war was bound to happen, given the fact that oil is such a valuable product, that anyone with enough greed, and the power to supply that greed, would go after it. It’s in human nature, to want more than we have…just as it’s human nature to breathe, eat, drink, and love. It is human nature for one to crave that which one does not have. The only way to “fix” society so that there is more peace is to fix ourselves into a state of anti-greed. And this shall never be accomplished, because many people, whether they wish to admit it or not, cannot put aside their nature. I myself am sometimes caught in the trap of trying to get everything I want and more. Also, another thing to think about, that will probably never happen (at least not in our lifetime) is government restructuring. Contrary to popular belief, society does not require that there be poor and rich to sustain it. All society needs is equality…true equality. To better this society, we must have cooperation and competition going hand in hand. Survival of the fittest only gets us out of the dark ages. Afterwards, we need to uplift the weaker ones, that they too may have a hand in shaping our futures. There should be equally opposite sides to the judicial branch, so that more productive compromises can be made, and there should be stricter requirements in selecting executive officers. Also, we should have changes made to our education system, because it’s sad how some of the same people that make decisions about how our education institutions make five times as much as a regular teacher. Teachers should be paid more, and trained better, so that students can come out of school with more knowledge of how to solve their problems effectively. If you’ve read all of this, and forgot what I’ve said earlier…I’m NOT blaming anyone, and I’m NOT accusing anyone of wrongdoing. I’m just ranting about several things that this generation will never see, if they are changed for the better.

Good Morning Black Nigga!

Another student and I came up with an interesting way to spread news about the current condition of the African American nation as a whole, in a way that doesn’t demean African Americans any longer, because we feel that these things should be said. I expect alot of criticism for this, because it is so racially charged.

So without further ado: “Good Morning Black Nigga!”